A Story or A Plain Plan??
Have you been asked by someone or maybe yourself, for what reasons you still life until now? Well, I'm not known much than what I think right now. Other says "It's for myself, of course." and "It's for others, right?" (Hey, why you asking me when I'm asking you? :D) and "It's for my parents." and "It's for you my sweet heart." (Don't trusted this answer with all of your heart content!!) and there's someone who say "For the glory of my God" (-__-; such a white and pure answer in a white paper..) and still so on.
If you asked me, I just can answer "dunno." Well, I must be lying if answer one of those answer above this sentences. I'm a big liar when it comes to my mind, I keep telling myself that I must pleased others. If I meet someone who is need a courage from me, I will say "I'm here for you." If I meet someone who doesn't care others ("cool" hehe..) maybe I will answer he/she with "You and I can do it separately." keep thinking my way is my way, and yours would be yours.
Leave the reasons now.. The fact is I'm living now! Huh... I get so much attentions from the people around me. Sometimes it get on my nerves. "Hey, you just keep standing behind that line! Don't crossing it!" this way I feel refreshed. Really? Yes and sometimes no. I'm a spoiled child.. I want attention when I need and feel annoyed when I don't need it.
Writing is not my style, do you'd know? I hate myself so much! But on the others side, I loved myself so much that I can't bear to always pleased myself. Well, my spoiled and child like attitude comes out :D. Don't try to closed your mind when you feel full in your mind.
I'm wondering, Is my life just a story like stories that I have been read until now? Or my life just a plain plan that "someone" make for me?
Sometimes I flee from my life with dreaming about another life that I create for myself. But when I learn my bible, it slapped me!! With just dreaming, its mean I made a sin!! "What the?!" is what I feel right now. (-__- if sleep is a sin, what will happen when I'm woke up?? there will be more sins I do just in one minutes!!)
Huf~... I'm a sinner than... Is this a plan or a story? Dunno.. What do you think about your life? Is it a perfect story? Is it a plain story? Is it a big plan? Is it a gorgeous one? Well, let yourself decide about your life with wise. Don't make a mistake by missing the meaning of your life. Your life is important, if it isn't why Christ let Himself be sacrificed for you? Why GOD give a hand for helping us, if we're meaningless to HIM??
GOD bless us.
.__ARIA__.